The Table I Want to Sit At

Welcome to Letters from the Deep End, my love letter to you all about healing, wellness, wealth, luxury, and legacy. I'm going to take you into the Soul Forward world I live in (imperfectly), share things I love and geek out on, as well as what's happening inside the lives of those in the inner circles of Soul Forward Method.

I'll be dropping in with whatever I'm navigating, what's coming through my channel, and what I'm intentionally moving towards in hopes that you'll discover new cool stuff, feel activated to lean harder into your soul, and maybe interrupt some patterns that are keeping you still (in the stuck way, not in the presence way).

Since this is the first edition, I want to share my Core Four life themes (plus the one that holds them all together). These are what I came here to experience and what I'll be sharing bits of:

Wellness - I crush hard on wellness, yet taking great care of myself is the first thing that goes on the back burner when I shift my priorities to things like channeling modalities and guiding women back to who they've forgotten they are. Whoops.

Wealth - I know I'm here to heal generations of scarcity and lack. It's been handed (*gifted*) to me along with the same Part of Fortune as Oprah Winfrey (these are in dynamic opposition!). But I'm here to experience wealth in all ways, not just monetarily. Freedom is wealth; health is wealth, and beautiful, thriving relationships of all kinds are wealth. I'm already a wildly wealthy woman. The money part is the last piece of my healing in this area.

Luxury - I love me some bouge. My soul chose to drop into a human who was raised in some very affluent and wealthy areas in the country (Carmel, Pebble Beach, San Diego, Los Angeles...). I like nice things, and I'm here to fully experience being human in ways that feel luxurious to me. This is connected to my Wealth theme (both part of my soul's curriculum). I need one to have the other.

Legacy - My soul came here to do something extraordinary for humanity. The level of legacy I'm called to requires that my human be capable of supporting, not thwarting, its birth and evolution into greatness.

And the one that sits beneath them all: Healing - This is the theme of my incarnation. I came here to drop in and forget what I came to do, and then remember it and who I am. Healing is how I did it, and it's what I've brought to life here in a new way because we all need to remember.

I spent time in some big rooms this year filled with dozens to hundreds of amazing women. I realized in these experiences that the rooms I really want to be in have a dining table in the center of them (whether it's in a home, restaurant, or venue). I don't do surface. I don't have time for it because I've got a calling and a legacy to build one authentic connection at a time. I shared this with my friend (now client), and she looked at me and said, "Same, let's build the table."

I truly believe we're being beckoned to live in a new level of authenticity, one that's beyond anything we've played with in the past. It's radical, and it moves the world forward. When deeply authentic people come together, it's even more dynamic.

Around the time I realized what my soul desires is to be in that intimate space around a dining table, an old friend of mine came out with a book. He and his wife hosted my ex-husband and me for Christmas dinner years ago, and he made the best turkey I've ever had in my life. I've known him for 24 years, and reading his book was beautiful. It spoke directly to what I'm longing for. It's about healing, even though it's about hospitality. It's a call back home.

As my focus is being pulled to the table, I wonder who you're sitting with. What are you talking about? Are you present? Are you shapeshifting to accommodate others, or are you fully yourself? Are you leaving the table elevated or heavy?

I'm so grateful to have you as part of this extraordinary life adventure. What a gift to cross paths.