When to Put It in Neutral

I had to throw it into neutral last week when I found myself in a brand new, very interesting and confusing place.

I'd either manifested the most perfect answer to my prayers or I'd manifested, once again, a situation that matched my subconscious programming, something that would keep me in the loop of it for longer.

The interesting thing was, I couldn't tell which it was.

Was my "yes" a result of my intuition leading me to the very thing I needed and desired?

Or was it subconscious programming wired into my nervous system, giving me more of what it's used to but not what I ultimately need?

I'll be honest. It was a bit scary not to immediately know the answer.

And because I didn't know, I paused.

I put everything in neutral and made no moves in any direction.

This did two things:

It created space for me to wait for clarity, even though there was a 48-hour window to do the thing and some FOMO was present. This allowed me to lean into my soul and its voice.

I was actively, by being inactive, interrupting the pattern of doing what I tend to do. This supported my evolution if the situation was manifested again from a limiting belief in my subconscious.

I made a decision to not make a decision.

And in the wake of that non-decision decision, I positioned myself to receive whatever I needed to receive in terms of direction, insights, and answers.

I got a little feisty. Like a cat in a bathtub.

I didn't want to be there again. Toed up to a line I'd stood at so very many times before, needing to make a decision. But there I was.

And what I found in neutral was wisdom, because I was willing to see it.

Yes, in fact, it was more of a limiting belief whose seeds were planted in childhood. And beyond that, I saw that the brilliantly shiny object was something I didn't even need. I already had it. I'd just thought I needed it because I've got some inner children hanging out in the experiences where I'd positioned "experts" over my intuition and lost because of it.

Interrupting the pattern allowed me to also see that the thing itself wasn't the answer I thought it would be anyway. It was a distraction from what I need to be doing.

It took me less than a day of neutrality to reap the lesson, see my pattern, and confidently step in the new direction.

What I found when I kicked things into gear in the direction I knew I needed to go was some mother-effin' speed.

This is how it works.

Your patterns of limitation, scarcity, unworthiness, will continue to show up in your life until you heal them.

They may come in different costumes, and you may not recognize them. Hello, you just got out of a bad relationship and immediately found a new amazing partner, only to realize the patterns resurface in this one, too.

Almost forgot: this is the whole point.

You are a soul having a human experience for the learning and evolution. That's why you're down here.

But when you don't realize that's what this is all about, you stay in the same classroom your whole life and leave here at the end of it without graduating.

You can heal and walk out of classrooms you've been sitting in your whole life.

Earth School gets really fun then.

I'll be taking myself through Soul Forward Method to heal this pattern where it actually has to be healed. I've been aware of these situations from childhood with teachers and experts, and I've done a ton of consciousness-based work around it. But it needs to be healed at the seed.

I positioned my car in the right direction and shifted into high gear. And the wind is whipping my hair as I head in the direction of my dreams.

I want the same for you.