I Forgot to Paint My Nails (and My Soul Didn't Care)
There was no spray tan, no rented dress, and I forgot to paint my nails for the in-person talk I did yesterday on Legacy and how to become the woman your legacy needs you to be.
I wore my fair skin, my moleskine-esque off-white flight suit, my favorite New Balance 515 sneakers (in a new color!), and bare nails.
I really like nice things, and I love being put together the way I like to be put together. But unintentionally, I wasn't able to get it all lined up before the event. And I did it anyway without a thought.
What trumped the way I would have wanted it to go was the desire behind the reason for the event, which came from my soul, not my aesthetically-driven human. I wanted to share my channel with more women, and I wanted to do it in a way that would make them feel safe, seen, and loved (with or without pretty nails and a beautiful dress).
Yesterday was the first time I've created a room that was entirely my own in real life. I've done a handful of collaborations over the years where I co-created rooms with incredible people, and I loved that those events gave me what I needed. The trial and error (how about playing the wrong hypnosis audio and only discovering it when everyone was already hypnotized and needing to change audio tracks? Or my dry fingers not producing the "snap" to bring a hypnotized room into a new state?) were mini-failures that paved the way for yesterday.
I knew exactly what I wanted to create. I knew that the exact women who were meant to be there would be there. I wanted everyone to feel welcome, so I put my mom at the check-in desk because she's very welcoming, and had flowers, cacao, tea, and Amaretti cookies waiting for them. I wanted to freely deliver this information to women who wanted to receive it, and I did.
40% of the room were women who have been through Soul Forward Method and were ready for this next level of consciousness. The other women were newer to me, or brought by a friend and had never heard of me. They were ready for this message, whether they ever experience the healing inside SFM or not.
My why for yesterday trumped how it was going to look. That's the soul trumping the human.
For the last couple of years, I was in a season of looking outside myself at how other women were building their businesses. I was allowing my human to outsource the "how" because I wasn't trusting that my soul would guide me to the way I'm meant to do it. It was a long season, but I learned what I needed to learn (hello, 6/3 HD profile, I have to experience things to learn from them 😅), and I have fully recaptured my business backend.
Yesterday felt like a tiny inner revolution. It was the beginning of me creating rooms I would want to enter into as a guest.
I don't desire fandom. I desire that what I deliver turns you powerfully inward to remember yourself in ways you never have. You don't need to become a fan of me. You need to become a fan of your soul.
I took a slow morning today, and I'm about to go on a walk with Aaron and Georgia to be in the perfect success of nature. Have you ever considered how successful nature is? The tree is a tree because it was meant to be a tree. And because it's a tree, it succeeded. What a lesson.
What are you being shown to release and recreate in your life? Is it something in your relationship? How you're parenting? Your business? What's gotta go because you can't get to where you want to be if you hold onto it?