I Said "I Want to Quit" This Week

She said, "Don't quit. Don't quit. Don't quit. Don't quit. Don't quit. There are a lot of modalities out there but none like this one. None as clean, pure, and crisp as this one. The way you talk about it is going to sound different than how a lot of people talk about what they talk about. People are going to be married to what they're doing, but you'll be in the back of their minds when they go to another therapy session and tell the same story. They'll remember you saying, 'We heal that here,' and 'We don't do triggers twice around here.'"

She is one of my SFM clients who happens to be an incredible business and career coach.

I reached out to her to ask for permission to share where I was at and receive from her, because I needed a trusted hand-up from where I'd fallen down.

I uttered the words "I want to quit" this week, which I hadn't done before.

Those are words from my human on the brink of expansion. Because after we heal, we're freed up to enter into the newness of what's next in new territory. And when we meet a new edge, it requires a different kind of flex, one that we may not know how to do yet.

Here's how I got there.

I channeled a healing modality. It wasn't planned. It wasn't on my radar at all. And I watch every single person who comes through Soul Forward Method experience what can't be accurately put into words (which is tremendously fun for me when I'm trying to share what happens in there with the world).

It feels similar to when I had my first baby and a friend got pregnant and asked me what she could expect, and I said, "There is literally no way for me to explain what life is like when you have a baby that would prepare you for it. There's no way to capture it. It's so big, so different, so all-encompassing, and unlike anything you've been through."

I often feel like I'm talking about magic beans when I talk about SFM. Like I'm holding them in my hand, telling everyone all about them, but the beans are invisible. Too good to be believed.

What I know is that when you lean into therapy, counseling, personal development work, plants, breathwork, inner child and shadow work, EFT, EMDR, and all the ways you've been shown to heal and understand yourself and move yourself forward, what you're looking for and hoping will happen through these things is what you get from Soul Forward Method.

That's the truth.

I've been really quiet for the last year and a half because I've been underground, excavating a place for the foundation I needed to pour to support this modality. I finished it. And now the work has shifted. I've replaced my hard hat and dirt under my nails with a white suit and clipboard, offering tours of the spaces I've created that are now ready to be experienced.

It's taking a minute to get used to my new position. It's one I haven't lived in yet.

I can't not do it.

I can't quit.

This thing that came through me is too good not to be shared with the world. I just needed to shift my energy and mindset into one of excitement for this new leg of the journey.

And so I did.